the little things

sometimes i wonder why i care so much. and then i reflect upon it and realize just how childish and insignificant it is.

but then, i realize that it's because it was a part of myself which i devoted to something i loved, and to have something like that thrown in my face is like a slap in the face to something i cherished.

but it shouldn't be like that. why should i allow such a little person to destroy and ruin what is important to me? he is not big enough to mar something beautiful. they are not worth the time and energy to moan over. they will never be good enough for all they attempted to eradicate what we worked so hard to achieve.

for he who is so small a person and so immature to take such a path i refuse to reduce myself to his level. but he has once again fallen in my eyes. i still believe that he can be good, but i have things to do and i am childish myself -- i am not so altruistic to waste my breath and whittle away my precious time.

grow up.